20 minutes more to go ..
Im nervous like crazy ..
Heart is beating non-stop ..
Having some minor stomachache ..
Unable to sleep well ..
Shit !!!
This is it !!!!
Aww .. man ... Tomorrow is the day. The day that our future will be set. Up until now im still nervous about my results. Im feeling agitated, restless, worried .... Whatever you can think of when you're going to receive your results. I'd even thought of checking my results via sms. Well, at least i wont get tortured for the whole morning right ... since the results will be release by noon. No matter what is it that's it then. Somehow i just feel like screaming out loud *screams* Anyway, forget about it, i'll just concentrate on my work for now. Urgh .... Hope tonight im able to sleep well.
*crossing-fingers*Hope everything goes well for tomorrow*crossing-fingers*
God bless .....
Okay .. Maybe this is consider as a great news to some people but i doubt there'll be many of them here thinks this is really some good news. STPM results is going to be released at 25th Feb. *oh dear* I guess everyone kinda got freaked out when they got the news. I was expecting the results to be out during the mid of March. Oh well ... I'll just cross my fingers really really hard just pray hard for my results. Besides, chinese new year still haven't over and then came this news. Wonder this will be the best new year present or the worst. I really wonder .......
Up until now im still freaking out ...... 5 days to go !!!
*god bless us**cross-fingers really hard*
Hmm .. I've got no idea how long i never update my blog. Maybe it's 1 week ? 2 weeks ? I don't know and im lazy to check them. Anyway, my day has been kinda hectic .. sometimes it's boring until i cant stand it .. sometimes it's troublesome .. Ahhhhhhhhh !!
I've been working for 2 weeks now. It's not that bad to start working since i can earn some pocket money, buy stuffs that i like and don't have to ask money from my dad. Although working here is kinda boring/sometimes we'll encounter some problematic customers but everything is gong fine. Yeah right .. Until recently (2 days ago) another dealer of Nokia organized some mobile phone fair until our business had been ruin by them. I cant blame them or take any action. *giving out a big sigh* This is reality. People compete to gain their goals (don't know how much they're earning by selling mobile phones with such low price)
As for now, let's cross our fingers and hope today there'll be some sales for today and day after today and everyday ....
*cross-fingers*
Since our mother nature is going to fall apart (in like 50 years later .. nobody knows), the government had set this new rules that every hypermarket and shopping mall are not allow to distribute any plastic bags. So ..
NO MORE PLASTIC BAG FOR US !!!!
At least we are able to conserve the environment =)
lol .. Since i've got nothing to do so i went to this page and i found this.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
God make me pretty,
What happened to you?
-Roxy Quiksilver
Today isn't my lucky day i guess. Make it yesterday and today ... Out of suddenly im having sore throat which actually makes my day miserable and then here comes the flu. Tsk .. I also expect i'll be having fever and guess my prediction comes true. This is really awful since i need to work. Well, as in waiting for someone to call me so i can officially start working. Rawr .... Few days ago the levi's supervisor called me and i actually felt happy or excited as im finally got a job !! Yes !!! However, something's wrong about the salary so i gotta turn them down. *emo* So now im jobless and pending for others to give me a call. You may say i sound desperate for a job. Yes i am !! Because i've got no idea what else i can burn my free time. Everyday, i'll be doing about the same routine. Do house chores, read story book, watch tv, online and shopping .... That's it. Seems kinda lifeless.
I better get some rest for now. But i've been sleeping non-stop due to the side effect of the medicine. Makes me feel so sleepy.Urgh .... Chaoz ..
School break is over now and everyone is rushing going to school. Some of the students are eager to go back school because they can meet their old buddies while some of them just don't seem to get used to wake up early especially those former form 2 students. Even those from higher secondary level students do feel the same as most of us actually have the habit for sleeping late.
Anyway, i kinda miss school. lol To be honest, i really miss all those activities happen around the school with everyone talking around. Seems fun to me =) I just want those out there try to appreciate "school" although life sometimes will be kinda hectic because it's like once in a life time. After you've been graduated, you'll can't go back to the past. So make more memories with your fellow schoolmates and just have fun =)
Happy Schooling !!
Happy "Belated" New Year !!!
Yeah i seem so outdated wishing everyone now. Anyway, it's the beginning of another new journey for us to carry on. I bet many people has made some new year resolutions. Well, i just wish & hope everyone will be happy and stay healthy =)
Not forgetting, since it's a brand new year i'd change my look. *cough* it's kinda unexpected since i never plan on changing my look but oh well ... I still can't believe that's me when i look into the mirror.
p.s: I really hope someone could hire me *bummer* since i've went for many job interview.
p.s.s: Screw the supervisor of Levi's for breaking her promise TWICE *sad**sad* (im just joking about the srew-ing part)
No money = No more shopping
Im working soon. Money !!!! Come to me ..................... Rawr
This blog will be temporary shut down yeah.
Sorry for the inconvenience =)
~peace~
A Hair Cut ? Yes or No ?
Ever wonder when you'll be having a bad hair day? Well, i'd experienced this before during last year of school break at November. As what i can recall, at that time my hair was quite long and so my dad said it looks messy on me. As if i've just woke up from my sleep *so not true* =x (i think it's kinda exaggerating =.= he just wants me to go get some hair cut that's all) So, i just follow what he said a go get my hair "trimmed" (it looks shorter than i expected) Anyway, the following day i went out with aaron to aeon then i meet up with wei loong and yeow sheng as well. From the moment i stepped into aaron's car he just cant stop laughing at my hair until we reached aeon (i wouldn't wanna mention how's the condition of my hair) Not forgetting, i was too being laughed my wei loong as well who always calls me 'lala' but at least yeow sheng didn't laugh out loud like the rest (maybe he's laughing .. no idea)
It's kinda funny what kind of reaction people will give when they see you just get your hair cut especially the hair style which looks extremely short/looks like 'lala' etc .. Since then i never get my hair being chop off until June. Yet although it's already been 3 months i just get my hair trimmed since June my dad still insists me to get get my hair trimmed again . Sigh .. I really feel so reluctant to get my hair cut. It's not that i don't trust the stylist, i think the reason is because of me (sometimes). I feel as if whatever hair style the stylist gave me it'll never satisfy me. Im not saying that i need a professional hair stylist to give me a proper hair cut ... nor im not saying that i posses a nice appearance so those hair style doesn't suit me .. NO !! .. Somehow, im just afraid to get a new hair cut. Im afraid that what if the stylist never cut my hair the way i wanted to even though i'd told him? What if ..... ? There's many 'what if' i'll give .. just to escape from the horror i'll be facing.
Should i cut my hair ? Hmm .. Let's toss a coin and we'll decide then .... *just kidding*
p.s: it's already been 4 days since our school break. I feel damn guilty for not doing anything except doing homework from school ...
The Ugly Truth
Ever think about what's the evil side of you? Forget about your 'goody-goody' attitude because i bet everyone of you will prefer to speak about the good side of you instead of the opposite ones such as " oh im a nice person .. im kind .. im honest .. and so on". Who will like to speak about their evil side in front of people? (maybe yes but it's just the minority of them) However, we won't be always being good. Sometimes, we'll just feel like letting the evil side of us to conquer ourselves. People are mean for some reason no doubt they can be no reason at all. After all, it's just all about us whether allowing those negative force to take over us. So here are the lists on what we usually used/use to behave :
1. Ego
There's only few percents of us here who are actually humble. Majority of us here tends to be ego in some circumstances. For instance,
we never let our face down/embarrass ourselves in front of people eventhough we knew that it's our mistakes and we're the one who suppose to apologize. No ! Some of us just denying the fact that it's our fault and blame it on others.
Example 1: There's these 2 neighbors who knew each others for many years. One day, neighbor A bought a pet (dog). So the dog keeps barking all the time. And it's very distracting especially to neighbor B. So, neighbor B tries to tell A that their pet is disturbing the neighborhood.(after few months) Guess what A replied ? He just said "uncle .. my dog got training wan. That's a dog .. Of course it'll bark."
Get what i mean? Even it's your mistake, you never admit it.
Example 2: After our examinations everyone will start asking each other about their marks given. Some of them just wanna compare themselves among the others whether who's the smartest. They just don't wanna be defeated by rest of the classmates. (this is a very common situation)
2. Jealousy
Jealousy often strikes on everyone no matter it's a female or male. Jealousy can happen between friends, couples etc .. For instance,
a) we tend to get jealous when we sees one of your best friend having the hottest boyfriend/new clothes/latest mobile phones etc .. Somehow you'll try to imagine yourself being in the same shoe as your friend. "How nice it would be if you owns everything your friend have .. "
b) you're a bright student who always be the top student in the school. Yet someone has took over your place during the next year examination which is you best friend. Although you feel happy for him/her but deep down you're jealous because you've been the best student throughout the past few years. So, you'll tend to wish that your friend will screw up his/her papers so you can beat him/her on the next upcoming examinations.
3. Greed
Speaking about money issue, people tend to be greedy about it. For an example, whenever there's offers from any hypermarket/shopping malls, most ladies (usually those aunties) will rush there and shop till they drop. No matter the items are useful to them as long it's 'damn cheap' they'll just grab it. Some of them even start some cat fight show in front of everyone just because both saw the same item they wanted and nobody wanna let it go (like what they usually do in shopaholic movie)
Besides, human are always being greedy. They wouldn't appreciate what they have and always 'whine' that what they're having now aren't enough for them. Whenever they owns something easily, they would NEVER appreciate it. (this is true for most people)
4. Lazy
We can be lazy for some reason. Such as lazy :
a) to study
b) do homework/assignment given
c) house chores
d) work/go office
e) etc ..........
5. Selfish
Sometimes, when you have something more than other people, you'll tend to be selfish towards others. You can be selfish in the sense of :
a) money
b) knowledge
c) self requirement (never share thing with others)
d) etc .....
6. Sarcasm
Sad to say this but nowadays people are getting more sarcastic. Though you dislike the person, you wouldn't bombard him/her directly but you'll just speak sarcastically towards the person. Sometimes, these sarcasm can be very irritating ... You feel like strangling the person/just smack him/her on their face.
7. Coward
Whenever there's difficulties, some of us will just back off from the responsibilities they need to face. Some may even blame it on others and neglect their responsibilities. This is what you call a coward. But some might even call them a chicken which is the same .... So face you problem ! Don't just back off from it ...
8. Arrogant
When you're rich/being the smartest person/having everything you ever wanted in your life you might just end up being an arrogant dude. (im saying this as in among the majority). So what you're one of those listed above? You may discriminate those who doesn't poses things you have now. You cant have it forever .. Stop being so damn arrogant ! It's sickening.... Maybe you'll say it's none of your business or back off if you don't like it but i doubt there'll be anyone who will really respect you.
9. Betrayal
Sometimes we tend to do things wrongly. Making the wrong judgement/decision. Some might even betray their friends/families/someone they love due to certain factors. Betrayal might end up hurting a person/hatred if the situation gone worst. So, think before you make any drastic decisions ..
Okay that's all now. Are you one of those listed above? If yes then do try to correct what you've done. It's bad to hurt someone you care or close to you.
p.s : what im saying here is just my personal opinion. If you don't agree on it then just forget what you just read. Anyway, please don't get offended ... Chaoz
School on Saturday
Another class replacement for Deepavali celebration. Sigh .. Speaking of having class during weekend is kinda sickening. First of all, i cant take extra hour of sleep. Secondly, i gotta wake up early to get ready to go school and unable to enjoy my weekend. *yawns* However, we do love having extra holiday during any particular festival yet we hate to go school during weekend. Lawl .. Well, that's us being as a human. We tend to be lazy and having the tendency to rebel.
Anyway, today's class was kinda bored. Other than having 1 period of chemistry on phase equilibrium which made everyone gone crazy, 2 periods of maths 1 with few minutes of chatting on facebook and another 2 periods of biology where most of us er .. "trying to concentrate in class" , we do feel bored somehow.
Furthermore, the attendance was awesome thou. I spotted 1 of the form 5 class ONLY has 1 guy present. Cool huh .. I bet the student would not have to study or he may just go back home instead.
So in conclusion, having school on weekend is a very bad idea (if you want full attendance)
Upgrade
*woot* Finally i had a new cpu (central processing unit). I've been longing for a new one for years *grins* So now it's free from lagging and im able to carry on my work more effectively =)
As a matter of fact ....
It's been awhile i'd not been updating my blog (i know it looks DEAD) So i've took the initiative to figure out something to blog. For the past few days (or weeks) i've been slacking a lot lately. Seriously, i feel like im being lazy more often . Sigh .. What a failure ....
Anyway, we just sat for our monthly test two weeks ago. So what i can say is everything turn out to be normal after that after being a nerd for few days. Blueks .. However, not everything turns out to be normal. The H1N1 virus is getting more critical as each day passes by. Many innocent life is being 'sacrificed'. I feel sad for those who lost the one they love. It's so depressing *emo* .. So what the ministry of health had taken steps to prevent the spread of virus? No doubt what they're doing is right but the public isn't that cooperative enough to prevent the spread of virus. Nowadays, i've seen many people are getting sick. The most common one are cough and flu. This had made those clinics nearby to have a very good business due to this incident. During our recent muet class we've just discussed about H1N1 virus. So indirectly i managed to get more information about this virus (to those who wants to know about H1N1 virus just log on to www.google.com) As for prevention, i think we should take care of our hygiene. One of the main example is those food court. They just plan to earn more money and neglect about the cleanliness of the surrounding. So it's quite easily for the customer to get infected or having some food poisoning *touch wood* As a matter of fact, we do play an important role to prevent this virus from being spread out .. So, please be more considerate for others !!
Surprise
Today is the day we going to get our MUET results. Early in the morning, as i reached school i heard many people were talking about muet results. Then, aaron asked me
aaron : you know your muet result d?
me : huh ??????? what results ?? (blurrrr)
aaron : by sms-ing u can get your muet results edi ..
me : errr .. i duno .... (still bit blur)
Well, i was kinda half-awake at that moment as im damn sleepy .. So forgive me for being blur .. blueks. Anyway, my results was kinda bad thou. I guess i never do my best or i just took things for granted. Sigh .. I know there's no point for me to release my sobers here .. Just that i will retake my paper for second time and give my best !!
p.s : my english sucks ... =s
BURN IT UP
This incident happens two hours ago at the wide field (hmm .. maybe some grass land) behind my house. Come to think of it, the exact time the fire was being lit on was around 6 in the evening where there's a bunch of ignorant people simply burn their garbage or god knows what they're burning on the grass land. The land was being abandoned since many years yet nobody cares about it either. So, there're quite a number of people staying in the wooden house behind my housing area. They took this advantage to do whatever they want such as .. having drugs, throwing garbage, vandalise, etc whatever you can think of it ..
Indeed there was an incident where those drug abuser were being captured by the policeman from the abandoned house (the picture shows part of the abandoned house) To be honest, this is quite eerie to me. Staying here without any proper security ..
Anyway, back to the topic. Around 7 evening my dad told me there's a bunch of people burning stuffs on the grassy land. Since the weather is kinda hot nowadays, those almost gonna dry grasses are easily being caught by fire. So my dad's prediction was kinda accurate .. About 8 pm, as i was slumberly folding the clothes i heard some roaring of 'alarm' not far away (maybe few houses away from mine). Then, few minutes later the roaring sound becomes much more louder until i saw the the 'red coloured vehiecle' (geez .. i don't know what's the name to call it) .. Somehow i just got excited to see the fireman put off the fire. That's why i took this picture although the quality of the photo seems kinda bad ..
So the moral of my random typing is .. Not to simply burn anything as you wish in the public. You'll never what will happen. Maybe a person's life could be at risk ..
Save the earth ! It's already been super hot so don't produce extra heat ..
Experiment
Going school on Saturday is kinda crappy because im lack of sleep and i need some rest. Anyway, at least we did some experiment to reduce our boredom as almost 60% of students actually skipped school and most of the teachers never enter the class .. What we did today was to continue our experiment on dissecting the rat. Since last week, we manage to remove the rats internal organs mainly the alimentary canal from stomach till the anus. Before that we were instructed to cut off the skin (fur/hair) followed by the layer of muscle. To be honest, the smell of a death rat is really sucks. I do feel like puking when i was about few inches closer to the organs of the rat. Thank goodness i ate my breakfast few hours ago. So, as i was saying, we were told to observe the digestive system of the rat and identify the paricular parts of the organs.
As for today, we manage to do the circulation system of the rat by removing it's heart. Throughout the whole experiment, everything went smoothly thanks to the help from few number of students from cergas class mainly zheng yii, fui teng, jacky and peri (er .. hope i spell your name correctly). Without their help i doubt we can even start the dissection of rat properly as we know there's some 'minor' problem we're facing ................. Anyway, i kinda manage to overcome my fear toward this 'creepy' animal. Yet i doubt that i would dare to touch any living rat ....
Broken Soul
Hmm .. Im not sure how to put this in words but somehow im being more depressed. I understand those feelings how the other girls outside felt where something had happened as if this leaves an big impact in our life. It feels as though someone had use a knife and stab it right through into your heart when you did not even notice it. To be honest, i really hate this kind of feeling. It makes my life to become dull and a little meaningless. Eventhough .. what we did isn't wrong but i just don't get it why this can be happening .. It's sucks and i hate it. I hate being depressed all the time. Desperate for someone to speak with .. I need to calm myself down whenever im depressed but how? This had made me to be even more desperate to seek for someone's advide. Well, maybe it isn't all about seeking for advice instead seeking for someone to express out your feelings. Somehow, i can feel as though im rather kinda annoying for bugging people like this ..
I've been holding back for this whole day. Somehow, the talkative part of me just disappeared out of sudden. There's a girl who told me to throw away all my worries and just be cheerful but how am i suppose to do so? I do wish that i can be emotionless just for a second. But it's impossible unless you don't even have a heart. Although im able to be cheerful but this moment wont last long. What i can do is to glue myself with all those homework teacher had gave and just concentrate on them. At least by doing this i wont have to suffer from all those 'nightmare' i had. However, no matter how strong im trying to be somehow with just few words i just lost my grip and i just gave up. It's hard for me to hold back any longer and i just threw it all out at that instant. It's sucks doing this infront of people .. But somehow a hug from a friend had kinda comforted me. I'd lost my thoughts then .. But a small hug had made me regain my energy to face the problem once more.
I was putting some hope on myself. Thinking that everything will turn out to be normal again but i was just too naive. Yet, the stubborn part of me keeps having some hope .. Having faith that everything will be okay soon. Well, i do wish that my wish will come true .. I just hope he'll talk to me ~~
Or is it i've did something wrong? If so im sorry then ..
p.s: having faith ...
p.p.s: i see what i see ..
